"It's the best thing that you ever had, the best thing you have had has gone away."
I took a panic attack on the bus today. I stabbed myself with a paperclip in work.
I am alone in all things.
I feel really disconnected from everything thats not me.
I know this weekend will be spent alone. Again. Because everyone will forget. They always do. I can only blame myself. In all things.
The best thing I ever had was taken away. And no-one knows. No one cares. No one understands just how much it eats at me when I'm like this. I hurt myself because its the only thing that I can control.
How much pain can one person take before they can't take anymore? There is no hope for the people who are in the hollow place I am. I am the hollow place. I am hollow.
It's weird, because we can all feel this way, and feel that we are the only ones who feel alone.
ReplyDeleteWhen in fact we are not alone in these kind of feelings.
And even knowing knowing this don't make it any better.
I hope you feel better about things soon.
*Hug*
ReplyDeleteRemember, I have a phone!
You EVER need to talk, you start pushing buttons.
Just make sure you push the right ones, in the right order, or you could ned up being connected to an Indian call centre.
That sucks.