end of diet week 4.....

Total Lost: 24 and 1/4 lbs
Total Inches Lost : 12. 4 each from bust, waist and hips.
Start weight: 15st 6
Current weight: 13 st 10 3/4lbs.
Mood: Thrilled. Fucking Thrilled!

Went and bought some clothes in a size 12-14 to aim for in the next 6 weeks. Size 14's for the win at Christmas! :D

week 2 on the diet

Technically we are in the start of week 3, but weigh in as follows!

Week 1 - 11lbs off
Week 2 - 4.25 lbs off

So two weeks down and I have lost over a stone. To say I am thrilled is beyond words :D

Progress models are to the side. This actually upsets me when I look at how big I let myself become. I actually cried. Anyhoo reading left to right.
Pic 1. Start weight
Pic 2. Weight as of Monday
Pic 3. Target weight for Christmas
Pic 4. Target weight of 10 stone (might aim for less, am unsure about this though)

Im getting so sick of this

Other than indulging in some button mashing rage, not much is going to make me feel better just now. I'm so close to walking from everything. You know that way you have a moment of astounding clarity, almost an epiphany, and you think "What the fuck am I doing?". That moment where you realise that things aren't getting better, it just been that old friend Self Delusion visitong again?

Had one earlier tonight. Im sick of it all. I'm sick of being me.

You know its been a hard night when you are pricing flights to New Zealand and Austrailia :(

Day 7 of diet

I'm finding it really hard so far today. Yesterday was hard. Cheated yesterday. Ate a spoonful of stew and a spoonful of apple crumble. Felt shit afterwards. Don't think its helped that my CD Counsellor just gave me 6 shakes as packs over the next couple of days when I had requested mixed, but she wasn't in when I went to collect them. Ach well.

Need to get arse into gear and stop nibbling. Need to stick on Sole Source. No solid food. Just shakes and water. 0.5l down already. 2.5l to go.

I WILL get there I just need to grit my teeth and hang in there. I can't afford to fail at this. Weigh in is tomorrow and all I need to do is hang in there until 5pm tomorrow and I'll see how the weeks effort has paid off.

FFS... A study in time and motion

If I said to you "we have to be there for 5:30 sharp. Before I book it can you make it? 5:30 on the dot okay?"

Would you interpret this to mean?

• you have to leave work at 5:38?
• You might just wander along anyway?
• you don't really have to be there for 5:30, that was just the organiser talking out her arse?

Either way £27.50 wasted for sweet fuck all. Personally I could have done without it. The cherry comes from the " I tried to phone you" shite that I'm sick of. Really? Tried to phone me? When? Half a hour a go you say? During which time the phone made no fucking noise whatsoever?

And the band played, Beleive it if you like!

day 4 diet

Day 4 down, and Im not going to say how much weigh I've lost as am saving it for Mondays weigh in.

Mondays weigh in is going to be good. Wish me luck!

In other news mice babies have fur!