Shattered

Im so tired. Im actually weary, approaching exhaustion, I think this is burn out time approaching.

Sent CATCH form away to universities on Monday, hopefully they will read, and invite me for interview, that way I wont feel the two jobs, plus studying has been in vain.

I know its not been in vain per se, but I need to know its towards something. I so afraid of failing that its tempting to never try.

I feel I have a finite amount of time. I know we all have a finite amount of time, but I have this pressing need to DO something, to make a difference, to sacrifice, to push and to acheive.

Hopefully I will be interviewed, found acceptable and then start the next three years come September. Im so nervous but at the same time quietly hopeful, not quite confident Im just trying to have a bit of faith in me. I've worked so hard now and I need this.

Have you ever wanted something so much you can taste it? I honestly dont know what I'll do if I dont get it. I just dont know.

On a less needy and quite frankly psychotic note. Happy Birthday Paul - 27 today. Yer getting auld man, gettin' auld. ;0)