Tell me.....

Do you sing of revolution or are you content?

Do you ever wonder where the time went? Do you ever wonder how much you have left?

"Lost in the maya
Overboard in the sea
There was void and then that water broke
Then something called "me"
Now a trip to the desert to look at the sky
It's like never-ending mirrors
Playin' tricks on my eyes"

WHY wont it go away?

Fuck sake. Been to the gym twice this week, worked hard, swam, sauna, dieted, pampered and took the stairs at work. Weighed pointed, and noted everything.

Result? 1.5lbs off.

Fuckin' shite. 1lb off having lost a stone, and it wont fucking shift. 2.5 months and not even a stone down.

Its so frustrating, all this effort with very little pay off. Im so close to throwing it all in.

Woman at the meeting this morning was like "Oh I lost 3lbs this week, And Ive eaten out twice, not exercised and went over points by at least 3 every day"

I burst my arse and lose 1.5lbs. This is proof life is shit.

STOP ASKING ME FOR MONEY!!!

Mum "can I have £300 please?" that was on Monday night
P mum "Can I have £450 please?" that was on Sunday night

in the space of two days I have a defecit of £750. And I have nothing to show for it except gratitude, gratitude sucks because it cant buy stuff at the shops.

Fucking money. I hate spending money. Thats a lie I hate spending my money.

Baws

Weigh in this morning. 2.5lbs off, and 11.5lbs off in total

14st 4lbs. :0)

need to keep going. Im so fed up though. Contacted Lighter Life and for the princely sum of £66 a week, I can pay to be put into dietary ketosis of 500 calories a day. This includes Cognitive Behavior Therapy Counselling.

They tell me I can lose a stone a month.

A stone a month.

Or I could keep ploughing in at the weightwatchers and keep trying to hit my own target of 7 pounds a month.

Im going to be really rigis with WW this month and see how it goes. I can do it, I want to do it, I just dont know why I keep sabotaging myself.

ao aye and Thursday (S) - over a month. 'sake