Hungary....

Going to Budapest in January for 4 nights. All booked up and good to go.

Whoo!

Meh

Moany Moanie moan moan, moan moan moan. Moany Moany Moany. Moan. Moany Moan? Aye, Moan Moany Moan.

That was how my day went.

Weight loss.
Week 6 weigh in down. Results as follows..
Start weight: 15st 6lbs
Todays weight: 13st 3lbs
Total weight lost: 31lbs (2st 3lbs)
Start size: 18-20
current size: 16

Its all good. Apart from the moany moan moany...

Life bites me in the arse. . .

Just back from the doctors and I feel really down at the moment.

Have been told that I should be trying for a baby now, not delaying like I was until I was going to be 29-30. She said that I should even be contacting the uni to ask for a deferrment for a year or two to try and have a baby then start my course, and certainly not delay having any kids to anything past 28. As I am damaging my fertlity by waiting, apparently my PCOS is not helped by waiting

I said I can't as going back to uni in Feb, and its a 3 year course. She then asked what I would like more, a family or a career. I answered honestly at this point a career, Im not ready for a baby. She said then that fertility treatment is looking likely as my PCOS will be worse.

I dont know how to feel at the moment, other than really down. I'm so tired of this. I'm just so sick of it all at the moment. I want to go home from work, curl up in bed and cry for a bit. I want both but its looking like I'm going to have to choose one or the other. We're swaying towards baby, but I'm so unhappy in work I can't stay here either and theres also the practical implications too.

I wish things were simple again. I wish my stupid body didnt betray me and that this hadnt come at a time of year where it would be the birthday of a baby I'd miscarried.

Ironic eh?