is this a landmark post, or a further foray into lonlieness where my only social contact is once again through the internet. Read by people I dont know, whom i can't see, who only know me through what i write here. I miss people. I miss the touch and the closeness of people. i see people in work, but they dont know me, they make me feel more empty than when I am alone. Its really corny but im never more alone than when I'm surrounded by people. I just want to sit and people watch. But i can't, they always want to talk, so then I have to be funny,happy,cheery. I can't just be quiet.... So anyway, good first post, i look like a nutter. Behold my gradual disintegration. At least this way i dont have to talk. Out loud.